Bear Mom

- A story where you can't expect the ending and can't predict what is going to happen is the best (The Shawshank Redemption, American Beauty, Black Swan!!!)
- Know how to pick the scenes, they have to have a meaning to your story. (Example: the car crash in Black Swan isn't showed)

All about beauty

I've just finished watching American Beauty and WOW! I feel like every movie I've been watching lately gets to make me feel goosebumps, haha. But seriously, AB is so amazing. The director/screenplay gets to tell a simple story with no actual expectations. It's actually and ordinary story (while I notice this, I remember of Angelina saying that there's is nothing worse than being ordinary). Married couple with a broken relationship and a lack of intimancy, even though they should have the highest level of it. Their child, Jane, is this rebel who cannot understand her parents and who hangs out with this Sky Ferreira alike girl Angelina, which is very selfish, bitchy, as a prototype of the perfect american girl. I think a good point of the movie is that the characters are finally kind of ordinary!!! But that is not what makes it such different. There is also a new weird neighbor that sells drugs and films everything, seeing beauty in many things (I identified myself a lot with him) and that has a traditional dad that sucks. He actually sucks. The movies passes in their lives, mainly talking about what happens with Lester, Cateryn, Jane and Ricky. Lester notices his marriage and sad, boring life, but does not start doing nothing until he falls in love with the prototype american girl friend of his daughter. He is actually smart and feels like enjoying life and trying to live every day as the only one. Cateryn, the wife, is the example of common sense. She is jailed to needs that aren't hers and sucess aspirations and habits and does things only because it is common. She is unhappy and even in her situation, she commits betrayal, and as her husband discovers it, she feels like he is doing her of a victim and goes crazy, thinking she is the right one since she follows society rules. Jane is just a good girl that dates Ricky and  is in the middle of the family bond, which is very sick. She is also a form for her friend Angelina to feel always better. Ricky has a stupid dad that punches him to bleeding and that sent him to a military school because he found his son with dope. Btw, Ricky still sells dope and has to deal with his OWN father as if he only had to tolerate it. In the end, this dad goes crazy because he thinks that Ricky is doing blowjobs for money!!!!! Blowjobs for Lester who is buying drugs!!! Well, he was selling drugs, what is not much better, haha. But btw, his dad goes after Lester and is like very emotional and he.... KISSES LESTER! What is like, he tries do adapt to the new things but he just can't. He was born, grown-up and became and adult with a thinking of society and things, it is just too hard for him to handle things. So hard that he goes there and kills Lester! LOL By the end, we have many samples of society and their acts and errors about life. The message is live life, but actually live it. See beauty in life, cause life is beautiful! There is beauty in it all. And don't have fear neither pride, they can stop you to live correctly! Those messages are delivered amazingly from the director/screenplay. Just an ordinary story can say that being ordinary is bad!

Nearing death...

Universe, reflection, mind, psychological, history, disturbing, trauma, sea, sea floor, ocean, gods, different realities, drowning, dreaming, fantasy, hope. My characters usually use escapism in their stories, often trying to flee or spending the whole story in other world and trying to get back or to make their fake world real. As in FPY, NINE9, Blindness and The Mage, among other stories, the characters live in anywhere else (Minho's mind and life with his loved, Angeline's mistaken to another planet, Alice fleeing the Underworld and Ronan huge will of leaving). As a matter of fact, all them include fantasy, notions of universe, mind, psychological and reflectional points, disturbs and relate to drowning into different realities. As the characters themselves fall into another world, reality, dream, mind, chase, the reader/watcher also falls with it. It also describes a process of making true, fighting for and/or adapting and embracing the new enviroment. Between my wants as a future filmmaker and/or writer, I wish to focus on the characters drama dealing with the new and respecting it, on the pressure the new environment/condition does to my characters and to make an obscure and surreal appeal in my pieces, to make them all reflects of how changing and chasing aren't easy and how it is uncertain. However my pieces' end may be, I will also focus on debating death and hope in them. 

I see the process of changing and chasing somehow next to the line of death (as a change and a chase may kill its participants). The NINE9 series has an amazing discussion since Angeline knows she want to get back without even giving a chance to the new environment, only trying to get back to her comfort box. As a fact, she reflects on how would that be worthy going back to Earth: her chase would kill her or make happy?

  Stanley Kubrick is noted, according to Wikipedia, as one of the most notorious filmmakers in America. It describes Stanley's pieces as dazzling, with unique cinematography, attention to details to achieve realism and an inspired use of music scores.
  Darren Aronofsky has received acclaim for his often surreal, disturbing films. His pieces have generated controversy and are well known for their often violent, bleak subject matter.
  Tim Burton is famous for his dark, quirky-themed movies.  

Is that true?

Said you had to live to start your life or what

I remember how it feels at 4AM. It feels alive, listening to any song with a feeling that easily sticks up with me. I remember the temperature, I remember my fear and the danger, and I also remember how it actually seems as the moments aren't passing by. I feel so alive these times. Times I'll get myself, old, remembering. Portals to my youth whenever I get old

Now

    The process of writing Nine9 series is becoming very hard. As I'm back school now, I don't have much time to focus on the series and only on it all day long, and this is a problem, since even when I had the whole day I would just take some long hours do write down what was burning in my mind.
Reaching twenty six pages makes me think that this project will finally be a finished project. The last and only one that I finished so far was FPY, which was not very acclaimed since I updated it many months after I started posting it, but the readers comments were very delightful. I think Nyah! readers are expecting an actual stereotype, which doesn't fit FPY.
    All my friends (my amazinggg beta readers) are complimenting Nine9 non-stop, saying how they are proud, how it is flowing perfectly and how they love it. As a matter of fact, compliments only make me feel better and give me strenght to write more, but always with the fear of writing something that will SURPASS the story itself, even if it's very good. Nine9 must be very charming and I want people to take it with them and to think it is very entertainful and I want the story to bring emotions to who reads and also to cause refletions up to them.
    I'm stucked up with new plots (all with new ideas popping up from nowhere) and I really want to write my ideas since I have to have new material ready for application and other processes.
The next step for Nine9 series is for me to make a chronology (I know I should have done it before!!) to guide me through coming up chapters and a physical and psychological avaliation and visual sample of Angeline, which will help me to react exactly as she would, even though my mind does the film itself.

in Wonderland

The anthem of sucess

And I heard your voice

And I had a dream about my old school

Anj and the bears, the Sea Kingdom, Lilo, Wonderland, Nazi and universe.

Altas viagens à 01:00 da manhã. Discussões de família no Havaí enquanto os alienígenas não chegam. A vida é uma droga e você desiste.